Aaah boredom

I've just come back from running my chubby ass round the complex a few times. I'm gunna try and get back into the swing of eating healthier and exercising more. I'm really unhappy with how I let myself go from October on. That means I have that much work to get rid of everything I gained. It's daunting but I gotta stay focused and just try.

Went out and had fun with Johnny last night. I got there late though, the fibro was kicking my ass, and has been all week actually. He laid on my lap, we laughed a lot and drank wine.
It's weird because I was so unhappy with our relationship for awhile there. Months actually. I started to believe he was the first guy I'd ever fallen out of love with, or at least was disenchanted with after being so infatuated. I was caught in this constant battle of wanting him to want me, not believing he did, not wanting to leave him anyway and then dealing with everything that was going on with Amber.
You really have no idea the toll that took on me.
When I came back from Salt Lake I just made up my mind that I wasn't gunna let her shit get to me anymore. I was done. And really, truly, since I made my mind up about it I haven't. It's weird.
Also since I've gotten back I have completely had the joy of re-falling in love. It's better than the first time I admit, because it's more comfortable and now we have history together. The only concern I have is when we can get to the point we're comfortable enough to live together. That's all I'm hoping for in our future really. Someday. Doesn't have to be soon.
I love Johnny. Yup.
Anyway the laughs have been more and I'm happy for this alone.

I've seen Frank a few times. I forgot to say what he got me for Christmas. They stopped making my favorite perfume "Bora Bora" awhile ago and he managed to find and buy a huge bottle for me. I was impressed with this alone. But he also bought me a ring. It's silver, with some red and brown stones in it. He said it reminded him of my hair. No guy has ever impressed me that much singularly. That was above and beyond for me.

My lyrics are improving though I'm not happy with how long it takes them to come to mind. However the music coming out is improving too in my opinion. I'm gunna start in on trying a new one now.

Sorry this entry is kinda boring. I'll come up with something exciting for you all soon.